As you may have noticed, there hasn't been much activity from me on here for the past couple of months because I went back home.
Home as in to visit my family back in the States, and not my home here in Italy lol.
Over the past 5-6 years,
I've changed a lot as a person.
Everything from my outward appearance, to my outlook on life, to the way I interact with people has all changed.
I didn't realize it was so obvious until a friend of mine told me the words
when I was back home.
I guess living overseas will do that to you.
I went from being extremely extroverted,
to extremely introverted,
and anyone that knows me well
has probably figured that out by now.
As years go by, I find it harder and harder to reconnect with people when I go back home.
It's not because I'm prideful, or because I think that I'm better than everyone.
In fact it's the exact opposite.
Most of the time, I don't even know what to talk about if I'm being completely honest because I feel like no one really understands unless they've
"been there, done that."
Does that make sense?
I never thought that things that once were so normal to me would become so foreign.
You almost feel like an outcast.
You can sit in a room full of people that you've known and were close to for years
and feel more alone in that room than when you are actually alone.
What's "normal" for me now, is not normal to my friends back home and that's where the disconnect lies.
Over the years, you sort of build up this wall and learn not to get emotionally attached because it makes it that much easier to say goodbye time and time again.
I flew back into Italy a few days ago, and as I walked out of the airport towards the car, I felt a burst of peace amongst all of the chaos because this was home.
I felt like I could breathe again.
I used to think it was just me, but things like this happen to many people with a similar lifestyle who live abroad.
It's true when they say that the friends you make overseas become a second family to you.
Although I choose to share a lot of my life on the internet, I hate opening up about personal and sensitive topics.
I find it easier to express myself through some sort of creative outlet rather than sit down with someone and really open up to them.
I hope at least some of this made sense.
I'm glad I got that off my chest,
but I'm done being cheesy.